Excerpt of Free Gift with Purchase by Jackie Pilossoph
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_Right then, I ran to the stereo, got out a Bruce Springsteen CD, put it in the player, and put on Born to Run. I started singing and Laura joined in and played air guitar. Not that the lyrics of the song pertained to my situation in any way, shape, or form, but there was something majorly appealing about blaring out my favorite Springsteen song during a moment when I couldn’t have felt better. I could honestly never remember experiencing such self-worth in all my life.
We sang loudly, “Together, Wendy we can live with the sadness…I’ll love you with all the madness in my soul…Oh, someday girl I don’t know when…we’re gonna get to that place we really want to go and we’ll walk in the sun, but till then tramps like us…baby we were born to run…”
And as I blasted out the lyrics, I thought about how great life was all of a sudden. I had so many good things happening, and so much love around me. I wasn’t sure if I’d love Den0507 with “all the madness in my soul,” but I was certain I was going to have a fabulous date with him on Wednesday night. And I truly loved, and had the love of my parents and Laura, and Izzie, an incredibly amazing little girl who loved me unconditionally.
As far as all the madness in my soul, I was beginning to realize that it was reserved for someone. It was reserved for the person who’d wiped my bloody knees, the one who was beyond easy to talk to, whose body was next to mine on a towel at the beach, and whose hairy chest I wanted to reach out and touch that day.
Luke was in my soul now. I had to admit it. Being in his house, crying in his arms, eating pizza with him at his big wood kitchen table, it felt like we belonged with each other. There was something very right about the two of us. Then again, Luke was in a marriage. So, was this wishful thinking? Or was my gut declaring that Luke and I were somehow going to be together? I wasn’t sure, but I did know one thing for certain. It took until now, when I had this amazing news to share, to realize that it wasn’t as exciting if I couldn’t tell my friend Luke about it. Hearing the news that Winchester wanted to buy Solo Chicka’s Salsa was like being given the sweetest, richest, most delicious cake on earth, with a piece missing. The piece was Luke Sullivan.